I hate feeling guilty about things I shouldn't feel guilty about.

I hate it when things don't go the way I plan.

I hate feeling frustrated because you don't do what you need to do, and because I can't and won't make you.

I hate having so much uni work to do, when all I really want to do is lie outside in the sunshine.

But, I do love that summer is coming back to travel with me when I go away.

And I love sitting on my back doorstep in the sun with soup, and toast, and coffee thinking about my assignment.

And I love that all the things that seem so big and important now won't matter at all in a little while.

I just wanted to say that I had a great time last night. That I'm going to miss you. That this wasn't an easy decision to make, especially when being with you feels so right. That I'm going to work really hard so I'm all happy and healthy and Harri again and get amazing marks and make you proud. That I'll wait as long as I can for you to decide that I can be the only one for you. That I love you more than I tell you.

 

That's it really. I always have so many things I want to tell you, but those are the important ones. I'll find you when seeing you doesn't make me want to change my mind.

Hey kiddies (whoever you are). I'm going to be frank, I just started this blog so I could read my friends' blogs on mindsay. I have another blog that I never use unless I'm going travelling, but update regularly when I do. I will keep this one here and you never know, I might one day think of something I want to say!!